Momento mori

It’s been raining every night here and I tried to take some photos of lightning, just because I felt like it. Turns out that I only got 7 good shots out of the 24. Some are better than expected though. 

That cheered me up a bit I guess. 

I’m rather annoyed by myself right now. School is fine and there’s football on, there isn’t really a reason for me to feel so…blue. Especially for the same reasons that I’ve been trying to cope with.

I’m afraid I’ve just entered my good old 2-month phase of unhappiness again. Oh joy.

I have my Rubber Soul record playing, hoping that I’ll feel a bit better soon. I don’t want to drink since it’s a school night, and I’ve already been showing up at school in a really bad state lately (Champions League etc).

I need to grow up and get my shit together.

I thought I’d share how exhilarating my day was.

I had swimming in the first lesson of the day. Then my favourite lesson of the day, English. We’re finally done with ‘Much Ado about Nothing’, which is great because I don’t really like it. I still think we should have done Othello or Hamlet. Well maybe not Hamlet since it’s so long and it’ll take forever to go over as a class. The English teacher made fun of me for not smiling the moment I step in to the room. I think it happens pretty much every lesson. I like him though.

Then I had Art. Got told off again for not working and not going out to take photos. Didn’t do anything in the lesson. Got a new teacher for Biology since our old one is expecting a baby soon. He was so loud. Told me to “cheer up”.

Spent lunchtime at the library, as usual. I also went there after school to hang out with my Dutch friend. Told him about The Tea Party and talked about conflicts etc.

I made really nice pasta for dinner and watched Reservoir Dogs again.

I might be going out for some midnight grocery shopping at this supermarket I love. Depends on how fast I finish my book I guess.

P.S. I think I mentioned the “Orwellian screen” a while back, there’s at least four new ones at school today. This is scary.

The massive decline in tourists and expats. 

Economical reasons aside, it just makes my life a lot less interesting. 
I often spend my Saturday nights at the touristic places, just talking to people from backpackers on gap years to the men on business trips. A lot of them with great ambitions and ideals. 

It’s just really great to hear their stories and see the world from so many different perspectives; I swear I’ve learnt more from these encounters than I do from a whole year of school. 

There’s still some tourists, of course, but it’s a much quieter. Most of the expats  I know left too.  

‚I guess at least I still have this Danish Café I can go to meet up with the multicultural regulars.

I know people are going to tell me things like “at least they didn’t lose”, but I really feel that we should have won. Sure we started off a little poor, but towards the end we had to many opportunities and well, we just have so much potential.

Uh this season for both Bayern Munich and Liverpool is so painful.

I was going to go down to the pub to hang around with other Liverpool fans, but now I’m not so sure if I want to. Especially now that I’m feeling even worse because of a Bayern loss. 

Maybe the nostalgic “glory days” talks can cheer me up…I don’t know. 

I’m still hopeful though. 

We’ll be back stronger. Soon.

Thank God for that equaliser, I don’t know where I would be if it ended 2-1 like the Bayern game.

I love you Steven Gerrard.

michaelianblack:

Sugar is delicious.

Salt is delicious.

Sugar cheers me up.

Salt satisfies my cravings.

Sugar wakes me up.

Salt keeps me even-keeled.

Sugar makes me want salt.

Salt wants makes me want sugar.

Vegetables are stupid.